i'm sorry,i'm so so so sorry...i dun understand why things are like that...i try to look at things from both perspective but sadly,it seems that nothing i do can change the situation.at 1 point of time,i'm so helpless that i even thought of giving up.do i have a way out?? i cherish every single thing by my side but i feel that psychological matters are the hardest things to deal with.WTH! i'm like killing myself with all this stuffs lar...what should i do,or rather i should just ask myself,wat can i do.. is the psychological barrier that hard to cross over,perhaps there isnt any single possibility that i might be able to achieve that... why cant my life be beautiful for once... WHY WHY WHY