1 month down
5 more months to go
which is like 148 days i suppose
haha
its really very very busy at the zoo
but yet
i made so many friends
and i'm having buggy lessons now
driving around the zoo just like how i drive around during pratical lessons
(:
its pretty fun
and i reallyyyy learn a lot of things
jia you lorraine
cant wait for the weekends
(:
work is mundane
but i believe that this is definitely the phase i will have to go through
before i am all set to be part of the working class
Have you ever met someone that makes
you feel that you can give up everything
just for him/her?
at that moment, all the differences between the 2 of you
seem so insignificant
you simply do not care about anything
except for the presence of that particular someone
when you are in love
the things you do no longer fall into place
sometimes
its really un-logical
you consider that person before making any choices
and you think that everything you do is beneficial to him
but to him
it might just be a step of putting him into misery
i no longer know what i am doing
even if everything i am typing now does not make any sense
all that i know
is
one snap
and
everything is over
he puts me as his top priority
he gave me the best
he tolerate my temper
he care for me and everything abt me
he loves me more than i can ever imagine
he cherish our r/s more than i can ever expect
but to him
i am plain stubborn
sometimes i dun wish to tell him how i feel is because
i dun want to put him in a difficult position
i rather be unhappy myself den to let him be unhappy with me
sometimes all i want is very simple
i just want to be by his side
thats all
i do not have any expectations at all
even if we have to cancel our plans
at first i might be a bit angry
but in my heart, he is still what matters the most
i am crying so bad that i can hardly see
it simply reach a point whereby i really hate myself
why cant i control my emotions well
when something happen
the first thing i do is cry
i totally lost control of my tears gland or watsoever
he is messaging me non-stop
but i can hardly reply
all i know is
i cant be the perfect girl in your life
because
there's something i didnt manage to give you
and that is
HAPPINESS
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL!
we practically did nothing for v.day
due to all the house visiting and pai nian
but well
i enjoyed my CNY
chu xi
was at the zoo on duty
tired but relatively fun
(:
this weekend will be gone as well
due to duty
but
no choice la
just rather sad that i will have to forgo house visiting
with my dearest i.promise
and lo hei with baby's family
):
gambled the whole night at nic's place on chu er
went home ard 7 plus in the morning
won quite a lot
and lots of entertainment as well
now
back to reality
holidays are over
and i cant wait for our getaway in aug
(:
2nd week at the zoo!
i had fun walking the sites for the halloween this year
but due to CNY
its really a super busy period
OT like every day
by the time i reached home
its time to sleep
super duper busy
never ending work
but its also because of that
time passed quickly
CNY is coming
i cant wait for reunion dinner
plus a bit of house visiting
but i will have to be on duty on a few weekends
):
okay
i am tired
will update again
jiayou le lorraine